Friday, October 10, 2008

Feeling the LOVE!!

Nath, bless her heart, loves my blog!! And of course, I love both her blogs!

I'm just happy to be in the circle cause boy, I saw this around for a bit and thought 'uh-oh, not feeling the love!' but who could blame you? I've been having a rough go for the past few weeks and my blogging has become a dismal bore.

A bore!

I have books I want to read right away but I've been fighting with my health - oh, my CT scan came back normal, so a definite Phew! on that one.

I had a cold the last few weeks of August but I powered through it and made myself believe I was well again and it worked. Until it came roaring back about a week and a half ago. If you've been hanging with me for a while you know I have anxiety about the winter months and getting sick. Being sick so early in the fall has me scrambling to figure out how to make sure my health stays powerful through the winter.

I've also had such a problem with my sleep that I'm all over the map. I was up for 24 hours straight on Tuesday - my sleeping pill didn't even crack the wall. At the 24 hour mark I took night time cold meds (the sinuses and headache get worse as I get tired) and a sleeping pill. At least, I think that's what I did. Why? Cause I woke up 19 hours later, shaking and dehydrated to the point of not being sure I was going to be able to keep food down.

I'm still thinking that was all I took but hours after I woke up I started to wonder if maybe I had taken an extra pill by accident. I mean, how often do you wake up in such a state and have a cottony lined feeling on the brain for hours after waking up?

Scared myself with that one. You know how you have a habit that you just do without thinking about it? I started having a vision (just a picture) of my hand with two pills in them like normal and wondered if I had actually taken a double set of pills by accident the night before.

Bad Cindy.

I'm also watching so much TV that it's on all the hours I'm up. I even need it playing while I'm on the computer (laptop) which I never did before.

And work is going gangbusters so I spend more time on Excel and numbers. Ugh. It would be really great except I haven't received my last pay check because I'm a contract worker. I send in an invoice and then they pay it. I guess it just hasn't hit the pay cycle yet but I haven't had a pay check in over a month and thus, I'm feeling like slave labour.


Even if I do squirrel it away I want it!

And in closing, Canadian Thanksgiving is this coming weekend. I'm so looking forward to my favourite meal of Turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing and well, those veggies and stuff and gravy!! Good thing I started cleaning on Monday this past week - I would clean for as long as I could (1/2 hour) and then have to sit and wait for my sinuses and lungs to settle back down. I was saturated in sweat on Monday and was so glad to jump in the shower when I was done. Might explain why I ended up not sleeping for 24 hours.

Hope everyone is reading a great book and that you have a great weekend. I hear the weather should be perfect for the weekend - YAY!!


LinnieGayl said...

Cindy, first, I'm REALLY happy your CT scan came back normal. Hooray! Sounds like you're struggling with exactly the illness I'm now coming out of. It's miserable! Like you, I generally get colds/sinus infections in the winter, so I'm now really nervous about the upcoming winter. I'm even going to go out and buy vitamins this weekend. Watch out with the pills! I once took an entire bottle of nyquil during the night (apparently woke up off and on all night and drank it down)...I was really sick.

CindyS said...

LinnieGayl - I was worried people would point and laugh ;) I'm also going to get some vitamins C, D, and possibly calcium (I should be taking it). My father takes echincea but I've never done that. And, uh, I'm a hand sanitizer freak - I carry it when I'm out and about and I know I can't get my hands washed properly.

And I can't believe you took NyQuil all during the night - the night sweats must have purified you!

Thankfully I feel so very much better right now and I'll be heading to bed soon. Woohoo for me! Glad you are coming out of it also.


nath said...

Happy early Thanksgiving, Cindy!!! I still feel like Canada cheaped out on Thanksgiving compared to the US, but hey...

I'm glad you had your results from the CT scan already and that everything's well :P Great news!!!

and LOL, you and me... you and me aren't feeling the love, but we have each other, so that's enough, right? LOL :P

Hope you'll get back on your feet soon :P

Bookwormom said...

I hope you feel better soon, Cindy. I know it has been a rough few weeks for you and Bob. I'm glad the CT came out normal.

Happy early Thanksgiving!!

Kristie said...

I am so with you on the anxiety about the upcoming winter and everything. I was diagonosed with Anxiety Disorder and Depression last summer and can already tell that it might be a bad winter. I am in Detroit, and as the weather keeps getting colder, I am getting moodier and more depressed and not even wanting to leave the house. I have done so well lately and am just so down on myself. Of course this weekend is going to be beautiful so I am going to soak it up! Just wanted to let you know you aren't alone and I get you!!! Keep up with the posts, they help me out as well!

C2 said...

Yay for a normal CT scan! :o)

I finally started taking vitamins recently. Hopefully they will help keep away the really bad stuff even if my sinuses continue to torment me.

What kind of vitamins?? Why, Spiderman sour gummy ones, of course. ;-)

CindyS said...

Nath - always you and me - and Ames and Kristie ;)

Bookwormom - thanks! I'm looking forward to a big dinner!

Kristie - I'm going to be living on you comment for months ;) Guess what, I get you too.

C2 - they have sour vitamins!! I'm sooooo in. I love sour patch kids but only buy them occasionally or I'd be a huge ass truck!