Friday, June 03, 2011

It's June

It's June third or something like that so I can admit that yes, the hostage was released into loving hands before the presumed date and yes, it was gobbled up.

That said, it wasn't perfect and I figure that comes with too high expectations but damn, something was missing. It's still a great book but not my fav of the series.

The good news is that finally reading the book let my brain break free from whatever lock it had with the publication of the book. My mind had no interest in any other book but now I'm free!

But it's summer now and I'm doing some HTML coding that's making my head hurt and I just got a 3rd Tax installment but hey, where's the first two?! and reading gets slim which is never a surprise. Just the same ol', same ol'.

I'm watching Damages season 1 right now and I just bought The Walking Dead (which is only 6 episodes but I need something to watch!) and then after that Bob's in trouble cause I'll be up with nothing to do. And that never works.

Hope you are enjoying your first draft of summer. Bring on the heat!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Quick Update

Everything is going along smoothly at the reno house which is great.

My Brother and his SO split big time over the weekend and it's ugly. I will tell you now, getting anything out of my Brother is painful so I couldn't imagine what it would be like to be his girlfriend/wife. There were together 9 years but something over the past few months ruptured even though Brother had said everything was fine. I guess it wasn't. I'm very sad for them both but I'm thinking their life must have had 'drama' cause the break-up has had it's drama.

But I digress.

Here's the skinny.

There are a few bookstores around here that are holding a certain book hostage (yes, that's how I'm feeling). So tomorrow (because it was a holiday today) I'm going to call around and see if anyone will sell me the book now. Cause I'm bad that way. And I really, really, want to read the damn book already!!

Okay, that's it for now. Hope all is well with you guys!

Monday, May 09, 2011

A Change for the Better!

This one is about books but some real life updates.

Bob and his handy helper have gutted the entire reno house and are onto the rebuild section of the job. This is serious progress and I couldn't be more proud of how hard my guys are working. Also, with me on his back - uh side, Bob has made great strides with staying within our budget outline and at times even coming in under on certain items. This has freed up money for a few things we didn't account for so all is going well.

On a belated note:

Happy Mother's Day!!

I bought my mom a Kobo e-reader from Chapters. It looks fantastic and I know Kristie(J) loves hers so I thought it would be better than my old standby which is gift certificates. Now, my mom is a reader but she doesn't read what I read which doesn't bother me in the least.


My Mom was quite bewildered by what a Kobo was. So I said, 'You know how Oprah loves her Kindle? It's like that only the Canadian version of it'. Mom: 'Oh, I've never paid attention to that'.


Anyways Baby Benjamin (too cute!) was being way too delightful for me to set up the reader for her but I will head over later in the week to see if she needs some help. I did show her the size of the lettering option and she seemed pleased with it.

So, I might own an e-reader if my Mom doesn't take to it like she took to texting on her phone. I have no clue how to text from a phone so I figured my Mom would have no problems with a machine that has fewer buttons.

And finally!!

I have decided to go back to my archaic way of creating a TBB list.

See, I hit all my blog spots and ohh and ahh over the books and think to myself 'Oh, I'll remember that title or author' and every single time I go into the store and have no clue what I may have wanted to try.

So I picked out a pretty fushia pink journal that I'm now writing titles, authors and thoughts in. This journal will stay near the desk for when my kitties get their mommy (me) gift certificates to Chapters! It will also go to the store with me when I know I'm heading to Chapters. I think this method will once again prove extremely useful in purchasing and finding new authors.

Okay, off for now. Hope you all had an excellent weekend!

Friday, April 15, 2011

New Digs

Sorry, I'm definitely around but as you can see from this post written an entire week ago - I have just a few things going on! On a harder note this past week we had to put our family cat down - he was 20 and my mom was a wreck and my dad wasn't looking to fresh either. He had us all around him and I miss him horribly. It's just been too tough to even write about it and that's another reason I've been a touch quiet.

Onwards - written 2 Thursdays ago.

Tomorrow is the day we get the new (old) renovation house. This renovation will be a B&C production unlike the previous 3 reno homes which were with partners. I'm considering writing a book about the last reno because the crap that hit the fan is something people think we exaggerate about. Sadly we didn't. And it was bad. Yet, here we are again but this time we're doing it ourselves. It will be interesting to see how Bob and I solve things together but if last night was any indication, we're already going to be in for some rough waters.

It turns out Bob doesn't A) listen to me when I talk, B) listens and then forgets, C) listens and then does what he wants. Any of those options don't really work for me but hopefully this reno will only take a maximum of 3 months unlike the previous ones which were 9 months and at times painful to the marriage component of life. The idea for this one is to get in and out fast, remember there is a ceiling to profit for the location and to keep Bob on track.

Interestingly enough it's the Keeping Bob on Track option that will be the toughest. Bob's train apparently runs much like mine and skips all over the place so yeah, there's that. Also, Bob does everything in his own time and my need to control things makes it difficult for us to work together.

Eg. Bob's new company - I'm the accountant on record and I need to pay some invoices. Only I'm not getting the invoices and I'm on Bob about getting things done in a timely fashion. So today he hands me the invoices but then says the amounts might not be right because we're HST exempt and the bills have HST on them. Uh, okay, so how do we actually find out? I was ready to call the businesses to tell the our HST number but then Bob's all 'wait, I'll do it tomorrow' because I'm sure he's not sure about what he is talking about.

Head meet wall.

So basically this is your warning that the blog will become quieter or there will be lots of whining about paint, floors, kitchens, time lines, budgets and finally, real estate peeps. I'm a touch scared of the next few months because I'm not nearly in enough shape to do as much as my mind thinks I can and well, that's the main thing.

On June 1st however, I will stop everything to read one book. Kiss of Snow by Singh. Bob's been warned but I'm thinking those earlier options I mentioned above may come into play.

So I'll hide.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Surrender to An Irish Warrior by Michelle Willingham

Wow. So that's what Harlequin Historicals can be like.

I have to give a huge shout out to Super Librarian Wendy for this recommendations because there was no way this book would have normally crossed my path. Surrender to an Irish Warrior by Michelle Willingham made Wendy's best of 2010 Reads and thankfully she gave me just enough information that I wanted to read this book immediately.

Cut to three months later and finally after a few pages I got sucked right in.

I love all kinds of romance but I really appreciate darker stories because in real life, bad things happen to great people. In my early years of reading the hero always saved the heroine justintime. And even though it is a wonderful thing to have happen, there are many times in life when a hero gets there too late if at all. Knowing a hero is going to arrive in time to save the heroine from even a scratch takes away from any tension the author is trying to build - at least for me.

Okay, so that's probably a post for another day about how I like to see the pain and the joy, I want it all. So we'll leave off there for now.

Surrender to an Irish Warrior is truly a wonderful romance that brought a few tears to my eyes. There are no easy outs in this story and the journey from being two completely broken people to two healed lovers looking forward to the future was hard fought and won.

Trahern MacEgan is a man with only one thing on his mind - vengeance. While away for a few months his fiance Ciara was killed during a brutal and savage attack on her village. He is a former bard or story teller who had an easy smile and brought joy to many villages but now he only has one agenda and that is to avenge the death of Ciara.

While on this path he comes across a young girl who insists he help her and he cannot turn his back on an innocent. She brings him to a cottage where a women (Morren O'Reilly) is feverish and losing her baby. It is through a day or so that Trahern learns that Morren was gang raped by the men who destroyed her village and killed Ciara.

Once Trahern and Morren come together they are rarely apart and I like that kind of romance. It's a quiet story and as much as violence had happened it wasn't shown on the page until the near the end when it was about the villains and their due.

I really enjoyed watching these two fall in love and more importantly, to see how Morren would learn to accept the touch of Trahern. It's slow and beautifully done.

There are no big misunderstandings but there are a few places that were a little too sweet for lack of a better word but that was closer to the end of the story.

In the end, I would like to read other books by Ms. Willingham although Wendy has mentioned that this book was more of a departure from what she has written before. So with such a big TBR and TBB pile, I'm going to wait and see which of her other books I will pick up.


Saturday, April 02, 2011

Me and Baby B

Yep, that's me in all my glory getting to snuggle up with Baby Benjamin. Turns out the happy parents have different ways of spelling Benjamin and now the new names have stuck.

Benjiman - that was what his dad wrote in a card. When the baby stretches he get one arm way up in the air and the other is fisted close to his body and his Extremely Proud Gram now says 'Benji Man!' like he's a super hero. Seriously too cute.

I have to say I will hog the baby. It just happens. But this past Tuesday night I loosened my grip and let my Mom have some feeding time with him - then my dad gets in there an picks him up and talks to him. I have to say it's quite a joy to see the family take to such a little guy so fast.

I asked Gorgeous Cousin if she remembers her life before Ben (7 weeks ago) and she just smiles and shakes her head. Watching her be a mom is also a new joy - I see him about 2x a week and I just feel so content after getting to spend some time with him and GC and my Aunt who is his Gram.

But I'm nothing if not over protective of my Gorgeous Cousin and she has kind of let the diabetes aspect of her life get a wee bit out of control. So she gets my stern look which always makes her laugh but she gets up and takes her sugar just for me so I don't worry so much.

And we'll finish with his early pictures from when he got home.

I think they took the picture on the left for Cousin Cindy because Benji is holding a MONKEY!!! And the family knows how I feel about monkeys. Lookit him in jeans and a Tee - the shirt he has on say Star Wars on it and of course I bought it for him! I believe this is him week 1.

Picture on the right was the day he came home - the giraffe is from Bob and I and the lion is from my brother and I know I'm biased but I'm thinking navy blue is his colour!

Okay, I'll stop gushing now. Thanks for letting me share the new little love in our lives. This new little guy is going to get spoiled rotten!

P.S. GC hasn't had to buy diapers yet (again, it's been 7 weeks) - Bob and I would buy them on sale and then my brother has shown up a few times with diapers so yeah, I can see him getting spoiled at Christmas - too bad he won't have a clue what's going on!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Here and There

I know, original but I liked the mix with the last post title.

So what's new with you? I hope you are all doing well!

What's new with us?

So many things I'm not sure where to start.

Just for fun, I make sure I get to see Baby Ben at least twice a week. It's funny how such a small little man can make me feel utter joy. Don't know if I've mentioned or not but Gorgeous Cousin rocks as a mom and I'm so proud of how she is handling everything. Especially since her SO has not found a job down our way so he's only home on weekends. I also feel horrible for him because I know how it feels to leave the baby and he's not mine!

I'm just so proud of her and Ben is such a good baby. He has his fussy moments but he's only driven his new mommy to tears once and that was early days home with her SO to help and the baby wouldn't stop crying. But I just love the light he has brought to the family. I actually enjoy watching all my family interact with him and that's saying something because I will hog that baby gleefully.

Okay, next!

Bob and I were approached by our former neighbour to ask if we would purchase their house and do a flip. We were floored and we explained to the person that she would be better off putting the house on the market as we wouldn't be able to touch market price. She insisted she wanted us to have the house (in truth Bobby - people do love the Bob) so we got her an agent but she went with our offer - soooooo, sometime in early May we may just be the proud new owners of our 4th renovation house.

Don't tell Bob but I'm a touch excited by all the possibilities and Bob and I have decided to go in with no partners so really, it's just he and I making all the decisions. Bob went a bit over the top with the original design but we've talked through it and I think he understands where I'm coming from and how best to make our money on it.

On top of all that, Bob is holding down 2 other jobs and was essentially offered a third the other day. I keep saying 'bird in the hand, bird in the hand!!' in other words, we have to look at what we have instead of searching the bushes hoping for better. It's a lesson I've learned as I go on in life.

Little bit of wisdom for ya, you're welcome.

Other than all that I can tell you truly that I don't want to read ANY book EXCEPT for Kiss of Snow by Nalini Singh.


I admitted my mental block. It's like I can't really concentrate on another story because it's not the one I want. So instead of forcing anything I'm sitting idly by and reading reviews and building up my shopping cart at Chapters.

On a completely different note:

Two nights ago I discovered Pixie (how dare you invade my personal space!) and Twilight (a little love never hurt anyone!) curled up with each other on the bed while Bob was sleeping. Did I get the picture evidence? I did, but it's on my video cam and I haven't downloaded anything from it yet.

So yes, the adventures of C-Rex and Bob will soon hit high gear. Until then, hardwood floors need to go down on the main floor, a coffered ceiling needs to be built in the dining room, the fireplace is currently getting painted and touch ups everywhere need to be dealt with. I'll get there yet!

Happy reading! Hope you are reading something that is really working for you!

Monday, March 14, 2011

This and That

I'm still alive and all. I have to say that I'm fully into cabin fever and it's not pretty. I think I'm fighting some depression but the good news is the exercise room is now all up and running so for the past few days the exercise has helped with my mood.

I'm stunned as I know most people are about what is going on in Japan. I just hope and pray that those who are in need get help now. It does make you feel powerless for sure - at least it does for me as I can do nothing for them except donate money. I do find comfort in the fact that Japan has training for these kind of natural disasters - I just don't think they expect everything to happen all at once.

In other news, I have not seen my baby cousin and I'm getting all antsy.

In even other news my husband is getting shell shocked by the price of things.

See, he had a job. And we had a paycheck and we also had a company car. Gas, insurance and well, the cost of things Bob wanted did not really enter his world view. Afterall, he was well paid and hey, he works hard so why not get a chocolate chip cake for later that night.

For the past week I have heard about how much is costs to drive to places.

Yeah, I know. I used to drive everywhere for my job but I was reimbursed mileage but hey, I was always aware of how much money went in the tank and most people have to know that. Bob has never really had to factor that in and now it's all 'it's going to cost us 30 bucks to go see my family!'

Then he wanted that chocolate chip cake I had mentioned earlier and holy cow, it's 5.99! 'Did you know this cake was that much!?' I get asked. Truly, I don't know that I ever really looked as again, job, finances, things were fine - now I'm looking at him and wondering if this new crabby Bob is worth 5.99 (just kidding).

What's funny is Bob thinks I spend most of our money and hey, I never really cared because really, I didn't. Now I look at him and say 'who spends all our money now?' and I think Bob is coming to the conclusion that 200 bucks at Home Depot is 2 weeks of gas money.

He told me I wasn't allowed to buy books anymore. I laughed and said I still have 200 bucks in gift cards to which his answer was 'crap!! I used all my gift cards.'

There's a whole lot of other stuff going on that I have to bite my tongue about but he does get C-Rex grilling him every few days and he's not used to that. He has started a Sales Agency with 2 partners and I so hope these guys can make a great go of it. I know they can, they just need to get enough clients going.

Anyways, he was offered something this past week and he's thinking it over. Of course, me being the biggest and best proponent of all things Bob (seriously, I think he's a genius and if he would only hire me as an agent we'd be rich in a few years. Or not because C-Rex can be off-putting) - I felt he needed some reality thrown in like cost of benefits (we use 'em!), cost of gas/mileage, wear and tear on a vehicle etc. These are things a company that hires Bob would have to come up with so in this new company he needs to ask the right amount of compensation to take care of all those things.

But, what do I know. I just know I pray and bide our time with full faith in Bob as long as he remembers his value and doesn't undervalue his work. (yes, we had that discussion and C-Rex almost bit him)

Anyways, that's the pile of ugh we have over here - I hope you guys are all holding strong and finding lots of leisure time and I don't know about you guys but I can't wait for the spring!

Friday, March 04, 2011

Dream of a Dark Warrior by Kresley Cole

Finally! A title that might actually help me remember the characters and plot of the book.

Dreams actually play into the story so hopefully that stays with me but then, with my memory, who knows.

Cindy Blurb: We meet Regin the Radiant (A Valkryie) a thousand years ago plus another 9 or so when she first leaves Valhalla (Heaven) and is still a child of 10 years. She has no real fear of anything but does need food and a horse cause she is still a mortal and hunger does not keep itself at bay.

She enters a Berzerkers place (think Vikings with super rage) to find Aidan, the leader to ask for help.
Aidan, upon seeing her knows she is his but also knows she is too young. So he hies her off to his cottage to feed her and keep her safe for the night before sending her to live with family until she is of the age they can be together. I'm thinking Aidan is like 40 at this time. Regin thinks he's a touch crazed but he listens to her and laughs with her when most people find her a pain in the arse. Doesn't matter though, she leaves in the night and for the next 9 years Aidan does nothing but try and find her.

Finally they are together and Regin still finds him fun and charming but hey, he's a mortal and she has no interest in sticking around to see him grow old and die. So Aidan says he will gain immortality by fighting 200 battles in the name of Woden (her Father) and will not anger the gods by taking her virginity. But they still have lots of fun. Until the night he can't help himself and afterwards is killed. His dying words are how he'll find Regin again.

Fast forward a thousand years and Regin is now the prisoner of Declan Chase, an evil man with the soul purpose of destroying all things Lore or immortal or of another species that is not human. He is the right hand man of a huge operation and has hunted and killed many of the lore.

Only Regin knows he the reincarnation of Aidan and with one kiss and a night of bliss she hopes she can save herself and her allies.

But with all things lately, it's complicated.

I have to admit I have a few left over questions about how everything worked and worked out. I mean, the idea of reincarnation is not really explained as to how or why it happens. In previous books Cole usually has logical reasons why something odd in the lore might happen. This time the reincarnation part wasn't really explained.

With that said, I have to say the story has stayed with me. I love dark tortured characters and Declan was definitely all that. In fact, he is considered the greatest enemy of many of the lore when they discover he exists along with The Order (a human group experimenting on miscreats (miscreations) to find the weakness so humans can exterminate them). I also like how even at the end of the story he wasn't all sunshine and happiness about the lore. I mean, how do you go from hating and fighting for over 20 years of your life and then just flip a switch. You don't and Declan really can't.

Regin meanwhile is fun and mouthy and hey, I enjoy that. She has a way of egging on her enemies and being somewhat inappropriate but you never have to wonder where you stand with her.

What Regin didn't expect was the man who had harmed her and tortured her could be her reincarnated lover Aidan. Afterall, other reincarnations had never tried to hurt her. Declan has her and many of her allies and greatest enemies all imprisoned and she realizes her only hope is to get Declan to remember his past lives with her.

But there's a catch and you'll have to read the book to find it. At least, I think you do, I don't think it's mentioned in the blurb and probably not in the first couple of chapters either.

I do have to say that there was a part of this story that didn't work for me and that was the 'mine' aspect which has worked for me in the past. The only problem is yelling 'mine!' out while making love it not overly romantic to me. Easily fixed with the addition 'you're' but just 'mine' and I'm wondering if it's the vagina he's claiming and the rest of the body parts are just there for the ride. Okay, yes, I may be pulling at fine strings but for some reason with this book I really, really noticed the use of this word and have to say it was off putting.

I don't want to go into spoiler territory so if you're going to read the book you might want to skip this paragraph just in case. I found the previous incarnations of Aidan to be obsessed with Regin and not really in love with her and Regin never really fell in love with them. Declan meanwhile has so much to over come that he doesn't come off as obsessed but more curious and needing. I think the separation of Aidan from Declan would have been complete if Declan had never used the same terminology as Aidan and claimed all of Regin without yelling 'mine'. Cause really, 2 year old kids run around yelling 'mine' all the time and even they aren't cute when doing it.

Once again, there is a meeting of many of the previous lovers and friends near the end and Nix is hanging about (but I can't see her as a pretty young woman - I see her as an old hag kind of thing) and I couldn't really tell who's story would be next which is kind of cool.

I'm going with a B- because I enjoyed Regin and her sense of humour and her ways and I really did like the dark Declan Chase. I guess the ending just didn't work out quite right for me (and it had more to do with changes in Declan than to plotting) so it's not really a keeper but then, I'm keeping the book - just in case!

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Finding Normal

Bob's job officially ended on Friday and as much as I am feeling off kilter, Bob seems to be thrilled. Until I got up this afternoon and he looked me dead in the eye and said, 'I'm bored'.

*shrug* I'm guessing the next few months are going to be interesting to say the least.

For the past 5 days I have been a day walker because Bob is hand nailing the hardwood floor in the master bedroom.

Hand. Nailing.

This takes serious time and well, Bob's not been slaving away up there. Not that I blame him, it's a huge undertaking but he seems quite happy with doing it all by hand. No huge mallet hammer to get things moving. I've decided this is his 'coping' with not being employed. Bob thinks I'm bonkers. But hey, I just notice patterns is all. Whenever something 'big' happens Bob loses himself in a project.

And the floors are the Mother of all projects.

Ah well, we'll figure it out. I just told him that I'll be back to my nocturnal ways soon and that I didn't want to hear it. He nodded and said that I had indeed been a trooper. Yeah I have!

All I know is my 'space' is being all ruched up. Bob 12/7 is a lot of Bob. I love him but I need my 'me' time or I get lippy. We just need to find out sea legs is all.

Finally I went to buy the Kindle only guess what? My gift card is only good for the Canadian Amazon so whenever I switch to buy the Kindle it doesn't recognize that I have funds on the account. So it would be 170 bucks right now and I'm not feeling all that jazzed about the future to be plopping down that coin at the moment. Bob has insisted but I've held steady. He did say he would order it himself but I laughed cause I'm pretty sure Bob knows how to find the news on the internet and then after that, the computer is a huge chess board or solitaire.

But hey, my birthday is in August and I'm pretty sure I know what I'm asking for!

And onto reading, I finished Dream of a Dark Warrior by Kresley Cole tonight. I'm working out my opinion piece but it's slow going.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Kindle? Nook? iPad?

I was sure I was going to be the last one to ever buy an e-reader and from what I've seen of blog reviews lately I truly am.

Once I heard about the Kindle upgrades and that it was wireless I was intrigued. But the price was too much and hey, Canadian so not great.

Then all hell broke loose and lots of readers kept coming and things just kept getting better and better. Including availability and pricing.

I was just getting ready to take the leap when Nook came out in color.

Like, wow. That is snazzy and I'm thinking the Kindle will have to respond at some time but tonight I got all itchy and went looking at the pros and cons from their ads.

Basically the Kindle is light, holds battery life longer than any other gadget I have in the house and that matte looking screen looks like it's perfect for reading.

The Nook colour meanwhile has some of the same stuff but the battery life is only 8 hours (and that's how long it can take me to read a book I've been all agog for for months and I couldn't imagine my wrath if the battery died 30 pages before the end of the book)

BUT, I love the option of sharing books with friends. Now that's the best feature I've seen yet. It doesn't go into how that works (cause I imagine there's some catch) but for an extra 100 bucks, if I can share books with Nath and Ames and Kristie and Amy and everyone else well, wouldn't we all save some serious cash?

And I think you can go online with it. Which is nuts cause that feels even bigger than just a reader.

As to the iPad - until tablets come way down to earth in price I'm not buying. I've heard there are some great upgrades coming so I'm waiting. An electronic that you can only read on seems like a bit of a waste if you can get something that you can read, surf the net and do your taxes on.

All that to say I'm still in the bushes. Waiting for the right time but boy, all those reviews of romances I can't buy because they are e-pubbed? Yeah, yeah, I can read on my computer.

No. Thanks.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Brain Wrecked

I got me some blues right now. I went to see the new baby and I think I have some baby blues happening. Ah well, they grow up and get all whiny and stuff so I keep telling myself I'm fine.

As to life in general - busier.

Last week we were out every night and that doesn't usually work for me. The good news is I'm careful about the anxiety pills now so I'm good stead on that front. Now I just need to get some exercise but lazy keeps winning the day.

Great news about being so busy is that Kresley Cole's latest book is at my local bookstore and I didn't find out until midnight tonight. Which is good and yet not because I can't get into the bookstore. Bad Bookstore.

And then I'm going to have another job. We'll see how long it lasts. I'm basically going to be Bob's company's Girl Friday. With lots of attitude. So I'll probably get fired just when it goes from volunteer to getting paid. Yeah, that's the way it goes sometimes.

So I'll be very busy doing up invoices, payroll and taxes and stuff. Bob's getting pushy already but they haven't even bought the program I would need to get started. Men.

There are so many things just juggling around for attention and I don't know where to steady my gaze so I'm guessing this will be me for a while.

All stunned and wishy-washy.

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

He's Here!

Gorgeous Cousin gave birth to a Baby Boy Benjamin at about 11:30pm on Feb 8th, 2011!

My plan is to go tomorrow around 5 or 6pm to see the little guy. Of course, we haven't heard the weight or anything but Aunt Nora said he was a big boy. I'm thinking close to 8 pounds.

Mom and baby are doing very well last we heard which means all the sugars are okay. Phew!

Other than that I'm sitting here trying to see if I can find the last few minutes of Glee from the Superbowl but nothing is online for us Canadians. Sucks! Apparently there was a kiss and I'm not sure how it all ended because it was a few minutes behind in taping.

Now Bob is up and sitting in his chair eating shredded wheat. I was only going to be on the computer for a few minutes before heading back up to watch TV. Ah well. Guess I'll cruise around the net for a while.

Monday, February 07, 2011

Just a Quickie

Hey, it's early Monday morning and I just finished ballots for the AAR poll *phew* and am about to start my wind down phase of the evening.

I've declared tomorrow Cindy Day which means next to nothing nowadays except - DO NOT WAKE ME!!

Then we'll see where the day takes me after that.

But this is a quick check in because this is the week!!

My Gorgeous Cousin is due on Tuesday so with much love, luck and prayer there will be a new addition to our oddly not nuclear family (My Aunt and Cousin are an extension of the 4 in my family - GC is just as much a baby sister as a cousin and I've told my Aunt she's the mother I didn't have (and yes, she laughed because she totally 'got it'). I'm very excited while having a few pangs of jealousy.

I mean, I chose not to do extreme measures to get pregnant and Bob and I went to an adoption meeting in the city that scared the beejeesus out of us! And really, I'm living the life.

No really, my mom is right when she says I live a charmed life. But there will always be a part of me that will miss or mourn the notion that I didn't have children. I grieved very hard from about year 3 to 5 of our marriage.

That said, I made a choice to be happy and I do believe happiness is a choice. This is not true if you suffer from depression - that is something completely different and I've been there. But making a choice to look at your life as full instead of complaining about all that you don't have.

I think what adds to my sadness is that my brother also did not have children biologically (he is with a wonderful woman who has 2 kids but the kids don't think of us as family and you have to respect that - no Aunt Cindy from those two and no Gram or Gramps for my parents)

So basically this little baby is coming to a bunch of adults that are so ready to see a newbie in the family.

And I'm thinking we'll be fighting over him for months to come!

I'll try and check in later in the week. Have fun reading!

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

February Is Now

I'm busy entering ballots for the 2010 AAR Annual Reader's Poll so I've been a touch busier on the computer than usual. It ends this Sunday at midnight so head on over if you feel like entering a ballot.

Then it will be a bit busy as we do up the results. This will be mixed in with the arrival of a baby for Gorgeous Cousin! My brain hasn't even processed it yet but I am very excited.

As to other things in life, Bob is now working from home so we're kind of in each others grill at all times. I remember this from years ago when Bob switched to working from home. There is an adjustment period but I feel like we're much more ready for it than the last time. So at the moment, he is still working for the company that has let him go on contract. The contract goes from week to week and I'm thinking this Friday might be his last day but we'll just have to wait and see.

After that, Bob has some irons in the fire. He has so many ideas I just have to wait and see where his Aries brain lands. My Virgo will just have to deal.

One thing though is Bob gets house bound much like I do. The problem is he wants to leave the house right when I get up. I remember this from the last time also. I get up, showered, dressed and out the door in about 1/2 hour. I think it'll be better for me as for the past few months I've been having a hard time getting out of bed. We were ready to get out tonight but my stomach was giving me the gears. Not sure if it's anxiety or just a bug like thingie. Who knows. I just knew going out tonight was not on my game plan.

The other night I did make him spend some quality time at Chapters.

I bought 2 books which was more than I thought I would pick up.

And they are from authors I have not read before. It was nice to browse and read the blurbs without feeling like I had to get out of the store.

Nightshade by Michelle Rowen - I think I was just picking up books and opened the book to read the scene that is normally written in the front of the book. Basically, some biting and fighting between what I'm guessing are the H/H and I was in. I'm hoping dark and dreamy the way I like 'em.

And Ms. Rowen has quite a backlist. Here's hoping this one is a hit!

Kiss At Your Own Risk by Stephanie Rowe - this one I picked up because I'm sure I have read one of her books and really enjoyed it. A pissed off hero and a woman who has accidentally killed a few people she loved and yeah, I'm there.

Brilliantly it was the copyright dates that got me to buy these two books.


Awesome. I can start me some early reading!

Also, I canceled those pre-orders from Amazon and can now put them under the one with gift certificate. As long as I don't make the same mistake!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Flying Monkeys and Karma

Remember the books I ordered from a few weeks back?

Remember I did so because I had a gift card from Amazon?

Uh, yeah. I used the wrong account when I bought the books and uh, it was not a small amount of money I used.

I'm almost afraid to do anything with Amazon at the moment because my brain doesn't seem to function properly when I'm at the site. And I'm keenly aware of having more than one account because I've made a similar mistake in the past.

How did I get 2 accounts at Amazon?

Probably forgot a password and then opened another account and voila, I have 2 accounts. One has the GC and one didn't.

Now, I know why I screwed up because seriously, I could see that the GC was being applied to the order.

Thing is, I have Air Miles.

I know, I don't fly and don't plan to, like, ever but you can get a ton of stuff with Air Miles, one of which is grocery money and hey, free food is a great thing if you have a grand dinner to do up. We usually save the money for Christmas time because who isn't broke over Christmas but we held on this year and we'll use it the next time we host something.

Like seriously, I can get about 180 bucks in grocery money in one year for doing nothing other than carry a card around with me.

Anyways, I filled up my cart and remembered that I needed to log in through to get my miles. So yeah, I had to go to to put in my account number which of course, I don't know by heart so I had to get off my duff and find my purse, thumb through all my cards (don't ask) and then click on the Amazon site to get back to where I was.

Here's the rub. If I logged in to the other account how did I still have stuff in my cart?

Now see, that's confusing. Should have been a red flag for me or something.

So that last order, where I ordered 3 books I already owned, returned them sucking 10 bucks off my refund for shipping because it was my fault AND now having a charge on my Credit Card that I wasn't expecting. Well, that's feeling a little like Karma kicking my ass about something.

Now, you might suggest I walk it off and normally I would agree.

But, uh, I pre-ordered 3 very important books that I can't have Flying Monkeys or Karma messing around with.

So I'm a wee bit worried about the 4th shoe but I keep reminding myself that bad things happen in 3's.

Which means I've reset the clock to have another 3 Bad Things!!!

Off to breathe in a bag.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Lazy Sunday

It's a lazy Sunday afternoon here.

<--- Twilight sleeping face down on Bob's legs - definition of lazy day!

I've been up since 7am and went out to breakfast with Bob - much to his delight. (I'm usually awake when Bob has to get up for work and almost every other day lately he's yelled out from the bed 'wanna go to breakfast?' - and my reply is 'uh, no, I'm going to bed!'). So he was thrilled when I woke up beside him and said 'wanna go to breakfast?'.

It's almost 4pm now and I can safely say I'm bored. And funny enough, Bob's been napping for 2 hours. My joke is that when I'm awake Bob has to sleep to fuel me and when he's up, I have to be asleep to fuel him.

I haven't been feeling great this past week. I'm thinking a lack of organization with my anxiety pills has caused some bad reactions causing me to fall into a depression. Either that or the SAD has hit me early this year.

Also, it is very cold outside right now. Today it's minus 16 centigrade. Which is bloody cold. We were going to see if my parents were around to play a game but they weren't so Bob fell asleep and I'm just playing away for a bit. Add a series finale that set me off on a crying jag and a few other movies that seemed to hit my 'sad' button and I was a wreck yesterday. Poor Bob.

All that said, life is about to get busy.

Next weekend is Gorgeous Cousin's baby shower and then the weekend after that is former BF 50th B-day party and on that Monday I believe my Gorgeous Cousin will be giving birth. (Being a high risk pregnancy, they will probably have to do a C-Section because the risk of still birth is extremely high in the last 2 weeks of pregnancy - so they go in early to take the baby out).

And then I imagine I'll be all about the baby. You know, till it can walk, then they can have the babe back!

On a completely unrelated note but kind of similar AAR's Annual Reader Poll for 2010 will begin tomorrow. So for the next 2 weeks I'll also be busy counting the ballots and then another week doing up the finals and stuff.

So maybe I should be grateful for this lazy Sunday and just relax into it and enjoy. Cause really, how many of these do I normally get?

Monday, January 17, 2011

Normal? Really?

I swear, just as I get a handle on how much of a mad house we live in, the hubby shows me what it's really like.

Yep, he must have heard me rambling last night in his sleep and his sub-conscious woke him up and forced him to get a move on.

The Beginnings of Normalcy:

Caveat: The floor is not yet nailed down, so he will have to move the furniture all again - although probably not right out of the room but I did have a WTF moment when B-Rex was huffing about needing to get the bed moved back into the master bedroom. And in case I didn't know, I was told 'he worked his bag off' today. Classy. Which is why I know B-Rex was imminent and it was time to be the doting wife.

See, I can be a team player.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Reno Hell? Nothing like mine!

I just caught the tail end of some show where a newly married couple get to buy a house and then have a decorator and builder guy renovate the entire thing. Sure, they have a budget but I'm thinking they have landed a plum gig.

Until I hear the words 'I'm not sure how we'll live her and renovate at the same time - that would be reno hell'.

Uh, you people don't know what reno hell is.

Exhibit A: I watched the video and started laughing before the baseboard segment because it was like 'oh, oh, I can show you something!!'

Bob's trying to wait me out with the grout on the wall - he believes I will eventually see the light and realize he was right all along. Uh, no.

And then Exhibit B: Please note I was out of breath a bit in this video as I ran up the stairs (okay, not sure that's true) and I was rushing because I was getting the 'battery is going to blow' any second sign. So not as much lingering.

I didn't get to the master bathroom which is literally studs and a shower pan (which we will tile) and a working toilet. That dresser you see in the master bedroom under the TV is going to be my custom made vanity for the bathroom. I'll be sure to take some reno shots.

And as to cleanliness in our house? I washed our floors about a month ago (I'm talking on my hands and knees) and the next day - THE NEXT DAY! - Bob walked through with muddy boots. When I did my theatrical gasp - this means very loud noise that makes Bob jump and say 'what, what happened' - he told me he'd clean it up no worries. I purposely did not go near the kitchen cabinets as the kick have dirt all over them.

So I'm a bit of a slouch when it comes to cleaning right now.

And C2 - I thought you idea of a dust colour was spot on. The paint colour is call something clay. For me, if they weren't going to be white, they sure as hell weren't going to be dirty white. So instead, a gray/taupe.

I'll take more pics and stuff as I go.

Oh, and this will be why I won't be around much this week. That library is getting it's paint job lickety-split!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Books!! *cough*

First, the background may change daily at this point. At the wicked age of 40 I now find all those things I loved burning holes into my retinas and that orange fun was hurting. So I go to pick another background and oooops, it's still orange and bossy. But obviously orange is on the brain so we'll see if it lasts more than a day.

Let's talk about the books I have ordered!!

Uh oh. Uh, something is not right here. I already have the cover images downloaded which means....I've probably already bought these books!!! ZOMG!!

Okay, maybe, just maybe I was planning this post and pre-loaded the cover art. I mean, that's what normal people might do...but I'm so not normal and the idea that I would be that organized is laughable.




Yeah, that's my sarcastic laugh that means I'm a total nut job and I'm about to find out what Amazon Canada's return policy is like.


Oh, but about the books.

I really want to read them. So bad, I've probably managed to order 2 sets now.

*shake it off*


Which means I also have the other book I ordered!!

How in the world!?


I knew there was something wrong. I knew it, but did I listen to that little voice in the back of my brain. Of course not because it's normally a wack a do!

I need chocolate.

Bloody hell.

See, I pre-load my cart with books I want to buy. Only I normally buy from Chapters but I got an Amazon gift certificate and now I realize I didn't empty the cart, thinking it was a wishlist instead of realizing that a few months ago I probably ordered the books from Chapters.

I said Bloody Hell already, right.

So that's three books that are going back.

*mental shake*

Okay, we can save this.

Surrender to An Irish Warrior - this book was reviewed by Super Librarian Wendy who also put it on her top 10 for 2010 and it's dark. Like super dark and I like dark so I just had to order the book.

Now, I don't really like people on covers but this guy is wicked hot. Clean shaven with just enough muscle.


That was more about me than the book.

Moving on!

The Iron Duke by Meljean Brook

People are having kittens over this book and I have to see what it's all about. Made jmc's top 10 list (maybe it was more) for 2010 and I haven't heard one bad word against it so I'm in.

If someone here has read this book and it's more Urban Fantasy than romance please do let me know. I can deal, I just need to know going in.

Which means I haven't read the reviews because I knew I was going to buy this book. Again, the way my brain works is ...


And finally Scoundrel's Kiss by Carrie Lofty. Another Super Librarian pick that sounded just quirky enough to have me sit up and notice.

Thing is, we've talked about how I need to branch my reading out and that's what I'm trying to do with this pick. I need new 'auto-buy' authors so I'm out to try a whole new pack of peeps.

We'll see how long that lasts.

And with this order I pre-ordered 3 books. I'm not sure why I did it but I thought, why not, give it a try.

Raziel by Kristina Douglas
Dreams of a Dark Warrior by Kresley Cole (auto-buy author)
Kiss of Snow by Nalini Singh (super squeeeee) it's Hawke's book and I can't wait but it's not out until the last day of May.

All right, off to see if I really do own those 3 books I talked about earlier.

Nobody mention this to Bob.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


I wanted something way out there as a background. I mean, if I think cream is ucky then the last backdrop was just wrong. But it had a bed in it and I'm so a bed person. Ah well, sunshiny orange and yellow and flirty circles are fun and I want fun.

I have started back on the treadmill - I'm doing 1/2 hour walks and I know I can do better but my stress gut is giving me the gears and at about the 25 minute mark it lets it be known that I need to take a break. Gut trumps everything so yeah, it's winning. I'm hopeful that with more walking the gut will also relax.

A subtle cream for the bookcases has been ruled out. I went to the dreaded home depot and picked out some colours that all looked great in the store and on the chips. On the bookcases, wall and trim it all looks the same. No contrast and I'm a contrast kind of woman. That said, I think the bookcases can be a subtle gray that I picked tonight for the wall. So now a dramatic wall color might be needed. Or the entire room will be the subtle gray - but Bob also loves contrast so I see him putting up a fuss.

The man needs a job.

Just saying. I'm worried that he's kind of looking for himself and everything he's thrown out as possible things to do has me wondering if there isn't a scary Hippy side to Bob. That said, I figure the first month he has no money to do anything and I mean, not even buy a nail kind of anything, he'll screw his head back on. Or I'll screw it back on. Might be I need to figure out what I want to do when I grow up. Yikes!

My kitty Pixie doesn't seem to like me anymore. I'm not sure what's up there. Bob says she sleeps with me every day but hey, I'm sleeping so I don't know she's there. She doesn't come out to sit with me at night like she used to and tonight I found her under the bed. I told Bob I'm going to find some catnip and roll around in it and see if I can't find that 'lovin' feelin' from her again. Although I wonder what she thinks. One day Emma her biggest, bestest friend was here and then she was gone and the Shit Disturber showed up.

And finally, I told my gorgeous cousin I was going to throw a baby shower for her. I told her this in September. She told me one of her friends would probably want to help. Uh, yeah, this friend booked a hall and sent out invites. Tomorrow night my Equally Gorgeous Aunt, Gorgeous Cousin (who is somehow also involved in the party planning) and this friend and I are supposed to get together to hash out the details. *sigh* At this point just tell me what to bring and I'm good. So I'm going to sit and keep my mouth shut - Bob will be there to help me with that if I start to talk. I really am a laid back person but for some reason, the friend sending out the invites has kind of tweaked my nose a bit. I did call Gorgeous Cousin and told her that I didn't need to be involved at all (there are 4 people creating this party now?) and she was all 'no, no, we need you.' But then she takes after me and is a people pleaser too.

Tomorrow night I'll share my recent book buys with you - I used up one gift card and I'm so squee happy about my choices.

Now, to figure out what I'm going to buy with the rest of my gift cards!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Great Expectations

I decided to title this one after a book. Why? Because I had some seriously high expectations of what was coming for me in January.

Time to read.

Well, scratch that off the list of 'happily to do' because I'll be painting for probably the next few weeks. And then there is the AAR Annual Reader's Poll (ooops, my bad, wasn't really thinking clearly) a baby shower for my Gorgeous Cousin, my mother's birthday, my BF(but not really)'s 50th Birthday party - oh yeah! And then Gorgeous Cousin has the baby I've been waiting on - but that's the first weekend in February.

I mean you guys know me and I'm not only nocturnal but I like to hibernate in the winter months and it's so not going to happen. Bah.

Great news is that Bob and I picked a flooring and we're still married!

Bad news is Bob's well laid plans are way, way, way off and now we're scrambling with tearing up flooring (mostly Bob cause well, I'm sleeping and doing AAR stuff). This will be followed by my finally painting my library room and the bookcases that I've left natural maple for a long time.

This means boxing up all my books *deep breath in* and moving them out while picking a colour for the bookcases because Bob thinks 'pure white' will be too glaring. This is giving me heart palpitations because his suggestion was to paint them cream.

Cream is dirty white.

That's how my crazy brain interprets cream so yeah, melt down of the new year happened and Bob got blasted. He's totally messing with C-Rex.

*letting breath out*

Oh well, I'm getting thrown into the land of the living and being forced to make decisions (I don't like to make permanent decisions dammit!) and life is about to get hectic.

Even so I'm hanging around checking out your blogs and keeping up with what you are all doing.

So, as I have said to Bob many times when I'm all up and bouncy - 'Entertain me!'

Friday, January 07, 2011

Hardwood Floors

I'm titling this puppy after what it is about. So you don't get all sucked into something you think would be cool and get ripped off by me whining about hardwood floors.

So I'll begin.

We have a 2 story home that is all hardwood flooring. It's that natural oak colour of olden days and can't be refinished because it's already been done and now the nail heads are showing and well, that will rip the sandpaper - and that's more than you ever wanted to know about flooring.

That sad fact is I know more.

Bob has decided that after 5 years of living in a renovation he wants hardwood floors throughout the house. Let's say the floor is 5 bucks a square foot and we have 1800 so let's just round for easy math - 10 grand.

10 grand hurts. Especially since Bob is about to not have a job and hasn't worked out what he wants to do next.

So Bob comes home crowing one night because he has found finished flooring at 1.99 a square.

Like dude, seriously.

Small problem - it's a cherry finish and too red for me. Bob's being a big butt head and getting all grumbly and saying that's the floor you love it and you know it. Uh, no.

So for a few weeks I've been 'buy it, NO, don't buy it, okay, buy it, no really buy it - holy shit, don't buy it'.

The other night I land on 'fuck it, buy it I'm so done' only to watch my fav. designer who 'ta-da' shows the viewers a sample of hardwood for a 1.99 and damn, if it's not the colour I want. At the end of the show the credits roll and I pick out the flooring name.

Only the designer didn't use the 1.99 floor so my hubby went on a wild goose chase as the store said 'yeah, Sarah 101, we have no idea what that floor was'.

So off my hubby goes again because I'm all fire and brimstone and refusing to pay more than 1.99 for the floor so 'get your ass out there and find me the colour I want'.

Tonight he gets home and I squee in delight. He has a sample of the floor I want. 1.99.

Only 800 of it is in high gloss and another 800 would be in low gloss.

I have 2 separate floors so to me, who cares high gloss down stairs, low gloss upstairs.

Except Bob is an Aries and the floors will have to 'meet' at some point (stairs) and it will drive him crazy for the rest of his life.

So I asked him why he even bothered to show me the sample.


So I'm all, fuck it and he's all 'sigh' and I'm completely bamboozled by this stupid floor.

See, I don't want to look at the floor for the rest of my life and think 'it's too red' and Bob can't look at the floor and think 'it's not the right gloss'.

There's more to it all. Have you heard of V-groove? Prefinished floors now have a V-groove so when whacking them together the edges don't have to match perfectly. Only now, you have lines on your floor. And who says in 20 years that's not going to be something people frown about.

Plain hardwood floors in the 2 1/4 strip oak have been around forever and aren't going anywhere and I'm a classic whore so I want what I want.

What Bob doesn't want is to buy all unfinished and we'll finish it ourselves because that is a lot of work. Lots and lots and lots. Hell, I've done a few houses and it's a pain.

So I'm pouting and mad and sad and needless to say very unsettled about everything and just want this part of it to be over so I can settle back down and read some books and not fret that we're destroying our house and, oh yeah, we don't have money coming in anymore.


Wednesday, January 05, 2011

Phaser Set To Stun


That title makes me wish there were more sci-fi shows on TV and more films coming out (and I have no clue why they changed the short form to a bunch of letters with 'y's in them but I'm not using it). I'm not a closet sci-fi fan but I'm quiet about my love.

I'm a Trekkie even though I couldn't tell you one thing about tribbles except that they look cute, I'm a Star Wars fan of the first order but I don't do pot or wear togas with cinnamon buns strapped to my ears.

Firefly, how I miss you - Jane was perfect for Summer even though she was trying to kill him but I now know that the creator doesn't like happy endings so maybe it's best.

Battlestar Galactica I forgive you for the ending and now want to re-watch every episode with a glass of ice cooled over with coke. Happily I have the DVD collection and can do so, I just have to decide when exactly I'm going to be all fracked up and immersed in sci-fi land that talking to me would be pointless. (I'm guessing once the summer re-runs hit)

I tried Caprica but it was slow and well ssssslllllllooooooow.

Don't get me wrong, I can do bad sci-fi and be happy as a sow in fecal matter. Starship Troopers anyone? I mean all of them. All.

Oh, I do have to say I love Fringe but I missed a few episode last year and have no clue about the 'amber' on the other side and what it's about. I need the first season but do I buy it and discover the 'powers that be' have canceled another ass kicking show or just take the risk.

See, I don't buy DVD's of shows that were canceled. Hell no. The network isn't going to bring back the show but they want my money so I can enjoy only part of a story? 'Life' was such a great show (and no sci-fi - yep, train is now off the tracks) and after a season and a 1/2 they canceled it.

I blame Jay Leno and that whole NBC nightmare.

Now in that case I bought the DVD for my Dad because he was in Malaysia and didn't get the shows and I didn't think any fool was going to cancel this show. Gah. And now, do I ever want to buy the last DVD and then sit and have a 'Life' fest but it goes against my prickly nature to reward those who make stupid decisions.

Cake and eating it is the only way I'm playing the DVD game so I hope networks start listening up. I'm not buying a 'whole series' DVD when I know the show got yanked off the air so fast, the advertisers were sponsoring blank air.

I'm not sure how this hitch got in my giddie-up tonight but this is a lesson on how not to create a title for a blog not already written.

What was this blog supposed to be about?

Me and the treadmill.

Phaser set to stun.

I'll fill you in later about the treadmill and boring stuff like that.

On the book front I'm a mess because I want to read one kind of romance and don't have a clue who would write it or if I'm in a 'kink' slot and need to look into romantica but I haven't had real luck with that kind of stuff.

But then in the end, it's still angst and stuff, just a little more physical and intense.

So you know, as you were.

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Happy New Year!!! And A New Decade I Think.


I'm in a wee bit of shock realizing it was over 10 years ago now that everyone was so worried about Y2K - I know how we prepared. Poor Bob ate canned food for months after a glitch-less New Year. He's a conspiracy nut of the first order but I figure if he's preparing for the things I'm scared of anyways then we're all good.

I can't say I've ever thought of 2011 or any date after that as a possibility but then I haven't been able to 'see' myself after the age of 3o anyways. I used to think it meant I would die around then but then I realized we just don't have those milestones to cross after 21. It was all about becoming a teen at 13, then driving at 16, becoming an adult and able to serve booze at 18 and being legal to drink at 19. (I know in the States it's closer to 21 but I think it's still 19 up here). So really, after 19, nothing really happens at a set time so time kind of loses it's meaning.

I will now mention I took my sleepy pills because I'm thinking I'm going way to deep with this post.


I hate them and I don't make them.

But there is something calling me this year. Something greater than what I've been for the past few months and it needs to be answered. Only I'm not starting today but maybe Monday or later in the week. I'll get there, I'm just not making it a pressure point that 'has' to happen today.

Today I think we should still celebrate. Monday is soon enough for change.