Friday, November 30, 2007

Lock and Load

You guys ROCK!!

I will weigh in on Monday and join a Weight Watchers meeting thingie ( the meetings are important for me - I gained my weight back after I stopped going). That way I get one more weekend of sloth and gluttony before I bring the pain.

I told Bob tonight and he is always supportive but he's worried because it's before the holidays. Unlike most people, I might eat more turkey, potatoes and such at Christmas but I don't eat nearly as many sweets as I think other people get roped into eating. Since I have so much anxiety around food and Christmas anyways, I eat less of the junk and more of the good stuff. Even so, I won't beat myself up if I gain weight over that week. It's just gotta end.

Also, I can't wait until the New Year to start losing weight. I get something in my brain and I have to act while my feet will still follow the path. I give myself an out and I'll take it and then some. Like, 'Oh, I meant New Years 2020'.

Holly and Mollie and anyone else, if you want to play then climb aboard but I'm not a pressure kind of gal and know all about the food demons.

Holly, isn't if awful when you have been so good with your food choices only to not lose weight. Course gaining 10 lbs while eating just fruit and yogurt?!! I would have taken out a small village in my rage.

And no one worry, but my back is much more painful that it was the last few days. Most of my friends (and Bob) have had huge ordeals with their backs and although I was sympathetic I just didn't 'get' it.

Sue told me I had to ice my back as well as putting heat on it - she used to get - I wanna say cortizone shots - directly into her spine to relieve the pain. The last time her back went out she ended up on morphine (she was pregnant) and it was the craziest thing I had ever seen. I would go and visit her and her legs would twitch (from the pinched nerve) while her eyes were rolling into the back of her head.

Meanwhile my best bud had a bad back because her breasts were too big for her frame. She had breast reduction surgery about 6 years ago but her back will probably never be right. She told me it had to be 'hot' on my back.

Both said to get some drugs. Yeah. Just what I need. More crap in the old system.

I'll get Bob to pick me something up tomorrow and I already have a Doc's appointment for Monday so unless this gets drastically worse I'll hang in. I'm putting on heating patches before going to bed later.

Maybe I'll wake up pain free.

Hey, if you're going to dream, dream BIG!


LinnieGayl said...

Cindy: sorry about your back. I hope it starts feeling better before Monday, but am glad you made the appointment in case. Good luck with Weight Watchers! I'll be rooting for you.

nath said...

back pain really sucks! I have back pain at every period... ugh. So I understand your pain Cindy... and you can only understand it when you've been through it... and Good luck with Weight Watchers!

Dev said...

I'm glad you have to appointment ~ be sure you go even if your back is feeling better!

I liked WW when I did it, but South Beach works better for me. I'll be cheering you along all the way, though!!!

Mollie said...

I looked up some WW meetings around here. So hopefully I'll get to a meeting next week too!

Holly said...

YAY! We're starting WW. I'm not big on meetings, but I think I can do it otherwise. I've already started, but I'm going to get more serious about it.

Sorry about your back, babe. I'm glad you made an appointment. I hope you wake up pain free, too!

sula said...

yay, join the WW gang! I have been on it since March 1 of this year and lost 60 pounds. :) Just finished my first full week as an official Lifetime member. squee!

I really hope that your back feels better. It really sucks when you throw that thing out of whack...makes it hard to do much of anything. :(

Good luck with the WW thing and maybe I'll see you around their message boards. lol. The only cool one is the "flex" board, imo. S'riously, I wouldn't have stuck with the program if it had not been for the e-tools...I spend half my life online as it is anyways. :)