Sunday, September 09, 2007

And I'm Back

It was really beautiful and even though I had a bit of a hard go when I left today I knew that I had a bunch of great women rooting for me all over the continent!

And of course Bob.

Here's a picture of me in that dress I had to alter and the shoes I had to track down. I had people I had never met tell me how much they loved my dress. I still think I look like a tank in it but hey, it's the best I could do. (Hmmm, this program won't let me crop so you get the full shot)

In the end, there isn't a picture of just Bob and I although I did do a family shot. I think my dad has a picture of Bob and I together before I got down on the dance floor. Bob asked me to sit at one point because he was worried I was going to stroke out. It's something I've always had a problem with, I get overly hot, very fast and my face becomes beet red. I'm thinking I may have to talk to the doc and see if there is something I can do about it. It's part of the reason I don't work out. I get so hot that I can barely stand it. We have a tread mill and I only get on it when no one will see and I wear next to nothing. TMI? It's actually the reason I swim for exercise but I figure it's not a good thing for my body to not know it's over-heated. I get out of the pool crazy dizzy.

Maybe I should be using Google to find the answer but the last time I did that (last week) I freaked myself out so bad about this huge rash I have that I had to get to a doctor NOW. It's not contagious and it's not a fungus (that's what freaked me out because they were talking about how you would have to wash your entire house in fungicide and stuff and well, you know I'm lazy) other than that, I don't have a clue because I went to an after hours clinic and the doc didn't seem to want to share her diagnosis. I finally asked, well, when will it clear up and she answers 'if it's what I think it is it'll be about 5 days before it *starts* to get better'. At that point I gave up asking questions (I asked about contagious, fungus and then how long and finally I realized it was a minute to the close of the clinic and she wanted out!) But she was right and it's getting better - my friend said she thought it was a spider bite. Ouch!

As you can see I'm just rambling all over the place but I'm trying not to over analyse the day. I cried during the ceremony (I was a bit of a mess and I had no kleenex - way to think ahead) and then there were just moments of hurt that I had to squash down.

Oh and kids!! The kids were everywhere (12-14 from 14 months to 11 yrs) and I loved it. So we watched the kids run and play in the fields (it was in the country) and we sat with the brothers and their family. It was a good time.

I keep telling myself that it's the cycle of life. People move from friendships into family units.

On that note, I'm exhausted and am now going to veg out for a bit.

Thanks for giving me strength and propping me up!


Rosie said...

Am I being overly optimistic to say it sounds like you did pretty well? You danced? That's pretty dang awesome. You look great all dressed up btw.

CindyS said...

Rosie - it's funny, I'm waiting for my emotions to catch up with me. My brain will hide things away and bring them out when I'm feeling vulnerable so even though I did everything I could to have a good time (and I had a great time) it was hard to see her having her pictures taken with all her friends. Yeah. We didn't have our picture taken together. Ouch.

And thanks for the compliment! Oh and I should have said there is not much that will keep me off a dance floor - there were a few westerns that kept me seated but they played those early and then brought in some good stuff.


LinnieGayl said...

Cindy: I worried about you all day (and much of the night), so I'm very happy to read your post. It sounds as if you did a good job with a very difficult situation.

The dress is gorgeous. Sometime, take a close-up of the shoes, please? I'm curious to see what they're like.

I hear you about looking illnesses up on the web and getting scared. Sometimes it can be very useful, but it can also lead us in a very wrong direction. A few times in the past year I've decided I have a horrible, horrible illness, only to go to the doctor and find out it's nothing.

The overheating does seem worth a mention to the doctor at a next visit.

Remember, we're all here rooting for you!

Dev said...

Your dress is beautiful, Cindy. It sounds like all things considered, it went as well as it could have.

C2 said...

The dress is fab! And it sounds like things went okay, overall. So good! :o)

I have the red-face-when-hot thing...I have since I was little. It makes people who don't know me worry and then they tell me to go sit down and take a break. Silver lining! ;-)

Chantal said...

SOunds like you did good :)

You look beautiful in your dress!

Kristie (J) said...

See!!! We knew you could get through it!! And everyone is right - the dress is gorgeous!

Megan Frampton said...

Dude, I gotta say, when I first started getting to 'know' you, from the way you talked, I assumed you were one of those people who was a few ho-hos away from being unable to leave your house 'cause of your weight.

BUT you are not at all! You look FABULOUS in that dress, so stop thinking of yourself as a house. I am glad the day went well.

CindyS said...

LinnieGayl - awwww, I didn't want you to worry!! I will get on the shoe thing - that was the other comments I got. 'Did you buy the shoes and the dress as a matching set?' at which point I would look at Bob and ask, how easy was it to find these shoes? And he would roll his eyes. I think he was surprised at how many people noticed everything including my shoes!

Yeah, I was going to look up overheating and have stopped myself - so far ;)

Dev - thanks! And yeah, the day was great, it's the memories that are scraping through my brain today.

C2 - my girl crush on you keeps getting stronger ;) Do you also huff when you get over worked? Like you it's been from childhood so I never really thought anything serious but Bob was completely freaked out last night. Made me start ducking cameras cause I didn't want to have photographic evidence of anything troubling!

Chantal - thanks! One thing that became apparent with the pics is that it looks like my boobs are crooked. Ugh. Can't win for trying sometimes ;)

Kristie - your the best! Thanks sweets!

Megan - ah, my evil plan worked, I'm thinner than you imagined ;) It can be an optical illusion from the dress - I did buy it to hide all the bad and emphasis the good and Spanx were involved ;)


Kat O+ said...

I'm so glad you managed to survive and find some enjoyment during the day. That dress is great!

Speaking of disease paranoia, a friend of mine told me that her (GP) mother now watches House every week so that she will know what "epidemic" will strike her patients the next day. *lol*

C2 said...

Overworked? What is this "overworked" you speak of??? I huff if anyone suggests I need to be working harder, thank you! LOLOL

nath said...

you look so nice!! the dress is really nice and you finally found shoes? the best, it seems you did enjoy yourself :D

and sorry I wasn't there to support you before the wedding :(

ames said...

Hey Cindy, you're looking great!! Sorry I couldn't offer words of support beforehand. :(