You Caught Me

I LOVE these birds and they make me smile. I like to think of them as the blue birds of paradise seeing as how I've been crapped on by enough of them. Or have they flown up my nose. I can't remember now what people say.

The look on the first bird's face is how I look when I can't find the book I am looking for in the gigantica bookstore. 'You have a million and one books but you don't have _____? Who is in charge of orders around here!'.

Add a tear in one of the eyes and that's how I look when Bob says maybe we should stay in for dinner.

Make the lower beak quiver and that's me asking 'but, who will cook for us?'.

I was very tired of my old template even though I found it soothing and easy to read. I have been trying to create my own templates and well, they only got worse after the Cody one. Okay, I was getting a knack but I don't know enough about graphics to create a super duper page and well, I wanted something super duper.

And I wanted it now.

I didn't think I would ever find something fun and different and then I stumbled (literally because it was like 10:30am and I was still up and getting dopey) onto this guys site. (Edited: I found the English section and the design is by a woman named Christina so, not a guy)

What was surprising is that even though his designs are unique nothing was speaking to me and then I saw this template and about cried in relief. (Nicole, he has a cat one!) He even has a few that are night themes but since I really can't read blogs with a black background I decided they weren't for me.

I'm so very happy that there are people out there that do up templates for all us, uh, techno challenged wingnuts who want a unique looking blog. I just wish his site wasn't in French so I could learn a few things!

On that note, my brother sent me this super cool picture - I have a wolf thing - and it would totally rock as a template. He sent it to me for a screen saver.

I can't see ever getting a tattoo because my tastes change constantly but at one time I thought if a gun was to my head I would put a howling wolf on my shoulder blade - it would look just like this guy.

I also have a thing about light beams.

What the hell, I'll share that one now.

I need to find a picture of what I'm talking about first.

I have a picture on my wall called Spring Morning, Kelly's Ford, Virginia but I can't find it on the web. It has the rays of light with a mist coming up off the trees and I love it.

*runs off to search for rays of light*

Alright, I found this picture and it feels like the first time I saw the beams even though I remember there being more colour.

Finally, the story! Easy. You've been here before.

Thinking back on it I think my Grampa Ken had recently died and we were in the car traveling back from the Sault (8 hr car ride). I was looking out at the fields and saw the clouds separate funny and then all these beams of light came down and hit different spots on the earth that I couldn't see. Not really remembering how I came to this conclusion because, dude, I was like 5, I decided that the beams of light were a calling to the people who had died to guide their souls to Heaven.

Now, I do remember struggling with 'do the souls have to wait for the light?' because I was the ripe old age of 5 and it was the first time I had ever seen anything like this and I was worried that the souls had to wait in the ground. Still, that resilient thing they talk about with children, I just decided not to worry about it.

To this day I love seeing the rays of light and even though it was a childhood belief I still like to think of them as beacons for those who have passed.

The sad part is that my brain now pesters me about the time in between the rays of light. Normally I have to tell that part of my brain to just shut the hell up and enjoy the view.

There you have it. Birds that make me smile, my love of wolves and rays of light. Maybe if you are lucky, I will take a picture of my stuffed monkey collection.

Apparently, a stuffed monkey is the perfect gift for me.